I'm Confident Your Faithfulness Will See Me Through
comfort in knowing, in the middle of the forest and in the middle of a mile where it feels like there's just too much further to go, that I'm running in a race and in a place someone has already gone before me."
There's a word that describes that great comfort in knowing. It's confident. Think about it, when we lack confidence it's usually because we have no idea how things will turn out. Whether it's a project at work, a first date, an article we're writing or a 35-mile run through the mountains of Georgia, when we get to imagining how those things will turn out, and we have no idea, we lack confidence.
With most things we'll never know how they'll turn out until we jump in. The problem is too many of us use our lack of confidence as a reason to sit instead of jump. We want to study the possibilities and gain assurance that things will work out in our favor. We want to get more confident in the outcome before we put ourselves out there and tackle the unknown.
You know what I've found? When it comes to looking for confidence, if I strictly look for it within myself, I never find it.
Earlier this year I registered for the Houston Marathon as part of a plan to help hurricane Harvey victims. The marathon had a 6 hour time limit. I'd only run one previous marathon and it took me nearly 7 hours. I wasn't confident I could finish within the time limit. And at mile 18 of that marathon, I found out I was right. I got pulled off the course because my pace was too slow.
But that race triggered something in my running journey. I've since run my fastest marathon and my two fastest half marathons. I've run more miles per month than I have since I started this journey five years ago. And me and my friends got to meet some wonderful people and do some really cool things to aid the hurricane victims in Pearland, Texas.
I look back on that journey and can clearly see God had gone before me. He had scouted the course, mapped out a plan, and even though I failed in my run, God succeeded in getting me where he wanted me to go. God saw me through my failure and to his victory. I stepped into the unknown and he's been faithful to see me through.
So when I line up for my longest run ever 10 days from now, I'll be confident. My confidence won't be in me, though. It will be in the truth that no matter what, God will see me through. I've tried going down many paths in my life without God. Not one of those paths has ever worked out. Not one. I've also tried going down many paths with God in my life. Not one of those has ever failed. Not one. His faithfulness has always seen me through.
So as I line up for that Georgia Jewel, my money isn't on me, it's on God.